I Am Not the Same

I AM NOT THE SAME

I am the beast who beats his family down.
I am drama queen, philosopher, and clown.
I am an orchid where the thistles grow,
I am seldom the same five minutes in a row.

I have no patience for a minor delay,
Deferential and insistent on getting my way,
I am persistent as the Everest snow.
I am seldom the same five minutes in a row.

St. Michael at dawn, Judas at sunset,
Accomplishments frequent, goals abandoned, unmet.
Easily tempted, resolutely saying no,
I am seldom the same five minutes in a row.

Strong, weak, smart, dense,
Decisive, torn, riding the fence.
Leading the pack, watching the wind blow,
I am seldom the same five minutes in a row.

Consistency the hobgoblin
Has never caused me a problem.
In every interaction I radiate stress,
My mood a mystery for others to guess.

The hardest change is not to change,
Lock heart and soul in a narrow range.
I will reap richly when I learn to sow
All my seeds in a single row.